Monday, March 23, 2015

Hakuna Matata

Hakuna Matata, what a wonderful phrase!



Sorry, but how could I not start this post off with that?

For those of you who must have lived under a rock during childhood, Hakuna Matata is the motto of Timon and Pumba from the Disney animated movie, The Lion King. As the song suggests, Hakuna Matata means "no worries".

Surprisingly, I have never been the biggest fan of The Lion King. However, it was still playing on my VCR more than a lot of other Disney movies due to it being one of my brother's favorite movies growing up. So naturally, I've still learned every line by heart.

Hakuna Matata, to me, is like one of those over used sayings like YOLO. It just became a saying that people use to seem cool or show that they understand a universally fantastic children's movie. Nonetheless, I do believe that living your life with no worries, however hippie-esk it may sound, isn't a bad idea.

I won't touch on it long, but I have had my fair share of anxiety and panic attacks. The simple phrase "no worries" helped me along the path of controlling my anxiety. Essentially, the root of my anxiety was people and their perception of me. Once I began to apply this no worries philosophy to my life, I started to see an improvement in myself to the point where I haven't had a panic attack in weeks.

On Thanksgiving of 2009, I spent the day at Disney World. My family was on a cruise at the time and our excursion for the day was the theme park. The day was about as magical as you could get. At the end, I was allowed to get two souvenirs. The first one I picked was a necklace with my name and mickey's head in gems on it. The second however, was a wishing bracelet.

If you aren't familiar with wishing bracelets, they are bracelets you tie around your wrist in a tight knot. Then you make a wish on the knot. Over time, the knot will loosen and the bracelet will fall off. Once the bracelet falls off, you leave the bracelet where it landed (unless it's in your house, then you can pick it up and put it somewhere) and your wish is supposed to come true.

My wishing bracelet was bright green and said " "Hakuna Matata" ... it means no worries " over and over on the ribbon. I don't remember what my wish was back then, but I did believe in it's power. I was also lucky enough to have mine fall off in my bed, so I got to keep the bracelet.

I found the bracelet the other day in one of my drawers, and I felt so happy. Not only did it remind me of my vacation that year, but it reminded me of hope. Even back then, I was a hopeful person and believed anything could be solved with time. That little phrase, in some sense, helped me get better and gave me hope.

"No worries" no matter how cheesy it sounds, really is a good motto. You don't have to give in to being unhappy. You always have a choice to change and make your life something you are proud of and happy about. Whether you believe it in a Hakuna Matata sense, a hippie sense, or another sense, "no worries" is a pretty good rule that we should all apply to our lives sooner or later. Nothing special, but still meaningful.

Much love,
Elly


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Thursday, March 5, 2015

The Wanderlust Plot Twist

Sometimes, I think one of my biggest flaws is my wanderlust. I dream of places I've never been and hope I'll get to see them in person some day, if that wasn't already clear from my Tumblr. I've dreamed of travelling the world my whole life. I think that was from my Peter Pan obsession as a kid. I loved how free he was and how he could go anywhere and be anyone or do anything he wanted.

I used to spend hours staring at the stars, I still do. I wonder what is out there and how many people around the world are doing the exact same thing and having the exact same thoughts. I imagine how small and insignificant I am. Yet, I have the power to do anything or be anyone, right? So what stops me from just taking off one day with a pocket full of loose change and a passport?

I could spend days just staring out my window, wondering what it would be like if I just left. I wonder what I'll see and who I'll meet and what I'll experience. I think that's why I love long walks with no destination. I'm in it for the adventure and the sights and learning something new. I have always been very curious. I always get told stories of me as a child from my family members. I used to always walk around saying "What's that?" or "Why?" because I was genuinely curious about the world around me.

I love car rides because I get a glimpse of how people live outside of my own life. Maybe that's why I find my hometown so suffocating. I loved it growing up, it's the perfect little town in the middle of no where. A place to call home and come back to after my daydreams. But now that I have left, I find it so difficult to go back, even if only for a few days. I feel trapped, like I will never get out.

I dream to live in New York one day. I hope to move there after I finish my degree. Living in London is another dream. They are my two favorite places in the world. Other than that, I want to see everything. To just put my life on hold and visit every country. I am tired of the everyday. It bores me. I need an adventure. I'd like to live out of a suitcase and never know where I'll rest my head at night. I'd like to meet new people and experience everything and face my fears.

But that's the funny thing: facing my fears.

I am an anxious person with a fear of new things and meeting new people. Possibly the biggest plot twist you've heard in a long time. The girl who wants nothing more to get out and explore is afraid of getting out and exploring.

See my dilemma?

Lately it's become so hard not to just get up and go. I spend less and less time at home and more just wandering in the cold. Spring break is right around the corner and I'd give anything to just explore during that time. Hop in the car with a friend or two and just drive. No set destination, just adventure, laughs, and an experience to tell for years to come.

The sad part isn't just that I don't have a car, but that I know it won't happen. I am determined to go somewhere new or exciting for at least one of the days, but how new and exciting is what I do not know. I guess all I can hope is that no matter where I end up, it's the memories and people, not necessarily the location, that I will remember and cherish the most.

Nothing special, but still meaningful.



Much love,
Elly


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